Guuuuys.. I'm at ~BlueCookieFerret now o__o All my artwork is theeeeere.. Not heeeeere xD

<-- O__o There, not here. Yesh.

I need.. a fresh start. So, if you wish to continue to watch me, go to my new account as this one shall remain forever dead.

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Mood: I just like boings
Listening to: "You Can Call me Al" - Paul Simon & Art Garfunkel
Reading: Eyes always hurt too much
Watching: What could I possibly watch in this state of mind?

I should be explaining myself, as I possibly worried at least one person out of everybody I know >>; Wow, one or two people..hmm.. Sorry, selfish moment.

Yeah, I was in the hospital, if but for a short time. I would have stayed longer, but I hate machines and the like, so I got out. Starting to regret that now, because I still feel blegh physically. My breathing problems are such a pain, and somehow I fear I may end up having to need oxygen tanks in order to breath. Yet, I fear I'll die without them. So I'm just confusing myself, fun fun.

Had a near-nervous breakdown last night. I was so far gone, I could have ended up in a mental institution. Don't really know what triggered it, but there was nothing I could do to control myself. Couldn't stop shaking, or these horrible urges to do bad things. Lucky for me.. Someone was there [ Online ] and he..saved me. I don't think he knows how much he actually helped. I was so scared, like a puppy who fell in a muddy ditch. And ever so brave, he came and rescued me. I want to thank him so much, because I'd really be lost without him.

Somehow, since then, I've been..well, sorta cheery I suppose. WAY better than I was. Even physically, I'm a bit better, aside from the fact that I need sleep.

Don't worry, I'm not going to let myself go downhill again. Or at least, I'll try to stay out of harms way ^^

Going to try to sleep for a while. I'm worried about a couple people I haven't seen in a while.. Hopefully I'll hear from them when I wake *lights a candle and whispers a prayer before heading to bed*

Side Note: Thank you to all who replied to my last journal

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I've ignored so many people in the last few days.

Between the hospital and here..

I don't know..

It's a bad day today.

I'd like to talk, but then again, I don't want to.

People will just end up getting mad at me for what I have to say.

So why make this journal?

Maybe so people at least know I'm alive.

Yeah.. that's it for now..

Mood: I'm stupid! Yay!
Listening to: "Everybody's Fool" - Evanescence
Reading: Subeta Forums
Watching: Monkeybone [ o__O; Again ]

Dude, I bent my finger backwards and need surgery. How fun is that? </sarcasm>

Okay, let me start at the half beginning.

Thursday, I was letting Ej borrow my bird cage for hamsters he got for free. I rode my minibike, while Ej, Tony, and some other friends were riding regular bikes. Somehow, one of them slipped and crashed into Ej and this car almost hit them. So the lady stops and says she's calling the cops on ME. She pointed to ME. But I was on the legal side of the rode for a minibike and I DIDN'T DO IT! For gosh sake, she was going like 35 on a 25mph limit road! So me and my friends ditched her by going a different way. We get to Ej's house, and his mom wants the hamsters gone, 'cause he never asked for permission. Sooo.. I end up taking them in. After we brought them home, I rode with Ej to his house, and on my way back, cops pulled me over and told me I couldn't ride my minibike anymore. THAT'S NOT FAIR! There's like 50+ kids riding minibikes and I can't ride mine over a stupid lady?! UGH. Anyway, I didn't care. Next day, I took my minibike to the park that's like a mile or two away. Ej was at the skatepark and me and Tony were at the basketball court playing 21, or Rebound for some people. Played a little rough and my finger bent back really far. At first, we thought I broke it, so we went to tell Ej. I showed Ej how far back it could go and they're all like "Why aren't you crying? If it was me, I'd be bawling right now" and they're guys which makes it funny xD I left them and drove my minibike all the way home [ finger was bleeding on the inside at this point ] and then my cousin took me to the emergency room. I was smiling the whole time I was there o__O As I was sure there were others with way worse injuries. I even waved to a little 5-year-old with bandages all over his head, and he waved back and smiled at me. Had x-rays done, then the doctor told me my tendons ripped and fell to the sides of my finger. He gave me a card to a hand specialist, because I need surgery to reconstruct the tendons. turns out my little double joint trick is also tendon damage xD Lovely, I need surgery on ALL my fingers. First, I need to find out if my insurance covers it, otherwise, I can't get the surgery and will live with a finger that's bent backwards .__x; You know, it's funny.. It just HAD to be my right hand, and just HAD to be the middle finger So yes, it hurts to type, but I can type 82wpm with two fingers. But this is a follow-up thing so you know I'm not forgetting the commissions or anything. I'll still work on them ^^ Just going to have to take loads of breaks 'cause of the finger. Too bad I'm not left handed xD

Enough rambling.. I'll update you all later ^^

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Art Trades:
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Commissions:
Naki - Manna, Stars, and Mejiru together [ Starting over ]
Chari - El Camino [ Coloring process ]
Bubbles - Pending [ ? ]
QueenLizard - Pending [ ? ]
Clouds - Pending [ ? ]
Jlcchaolover - Pending [ ? ]

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